I Try To Remember Who I Used To Be..

But the brain doesn't permit that much when you accidentally-on-purpose keep hitting the delete button over and over.. Some dumbos say there's a time where it will all just come crashing down - well they're not very dumb if they know the future are theyyyyy!

And I know because I remind myself as I type this that in a matter of time I'll re-discover this blog post and say 'Emo much?' because times will be happier and I would have grown. Shame the only thing I would have grown was a shield stopping me from expecting it to go bad again! :/

That is why certain people create meaningful songs like.. James Blunt's 'Same Mistake'.. because that's what it is really..  the same mistake being repeated as though you're watching the same murder scene in a horror movie over and over like it's really gonna change anything if you see it one time or five :/ 

*********please note the emotic attitude EUW rid me of it at once mateee!!*********

I actually realized a lot of things within this past week of basically locking myself up in my house and not leaving.. [albeit the fact that we're in 'HOLIDAYS' which usually translates into 'HUGEMONGOUSXALATA' but let's not point out useless facts..] things I could have.. or should have.. realized a long long time ago but I never gave myself the chance to do that because, why help yourself feel sad? :S 

Something must be up with my zodiac, zgur, coz as I type the things just keep slapping me in the face like "HELLO I AM YOUR THOUGHTS - I WAS JUST TAUNTING YOU FOREVER BUT NOW I'M BORED SO FEEL PAIN =D".. Maybe I didn't LET myself realize, maybe I was immune, but what goes around comes around ARGH :S (how do people notice THOSE things? Philosophers much?? lol).

I've been secretly depressed for "no apparent reason" (big joke!) for quite a while, even since before the new year rolled in... But there's ALWAYS a reason. Whether it was something that happened 3 years ago or something that happened five minutes ago.. Nobody gets sad for nothing :/ (annoyingly). 

So my instinct decided it was boy trouble. A girl having boy trouble? News really *rolls eyes*... And obviously.. Ms. Naive (hi - that's me) who's soundtrack of her life is.. infact.. "Same Mistake" (cliché? never!) obviously devoted herself to following it like her RELIGION because the mistake is just always there but going unnoticed! Conveniently I only realize that NOW, a million years later, when it doesn't even matter, and I may well have forgotten the actual problem in the first place!! ARG!

To be very insanely honest, I am moody. But I was born that way, so you can't condemn me for something I didn't choose can you :/ Coz if we could choose our personality then.. well there'd be more hatred in the world because of clashes.. 

To Prove: moodiness

Proof: depression for a week

            moodswings left right and centre

            suddenly immensely happy

Therefore, triangle Elizabeth = moody.

Hence, mental problems.

I used to hate doing that in Maths haha =) Okay loserism is me... Back to me and my stupendous problematics: Other than boys being the root of my sadness (lol) it was probably on account of me missing summer and how relaxed but wild it was and how the biggest problems we had were which beach to go to or whose house we were crashing at. Those WERE the days mate.. The fear of it all not being recreated this summer saddens me deeply... What with new friends and new groups.. 

Frankly I'm not in love with my 'group' which is hardly a group and well, I miss the old one + for a while thought it was just me but it's not really.. And talking to everyone again lately just made me happy whether it was an instant message or a facebook comment or a face to face meeting... But still, the inevitable. What comes to mind is that if person A doesn't spend 24/7 with group A, person B doesn't spend 24/7 with group B, and person C doesn't spend 24/7 with group C (etc etc), and those three persons hung out, the groups probably wouldn't die without them.. Which is the harsh reality.. but that's what it is: reality. :/

So technically, thoughts of a brighter future are making me happy and looking forward slowly slowly to the forth-comings of the next two seasons XD And this was brought about by rekindling the flame that was fuelled by memories.. Wow I'm either way too sad or way too soppy yuck haha :S

On another billion notes, a lot has changed, obviously... Including myself, and the contents of my house, and probably my maturity level. The only thing I hate about a time like this is, inevitably, eventually it's gonna wear off and I'm gonna spend a good fraction of my life sad again. But now, instead of making the 'same mistake' again, I shall 1. change the song (duh) and 2. find a way to avoid it, now that I KIND OF know what caused it. Well I just noticed I don't really.. but it's a good start pahah :) 

Also, another thing I hate (looks like it wasn't the 'only' thing after all lol!) is that it is once again only NOW, after the event, that I can fix the problem. The solution was quite a joke, and I'm not entirely sure what it was.. bahah :S Anyway. More issues include people being completely unreliable (shock horror eee?!) + me (once again seeming like the only one who has a problem with it) hating it to hell. Long blog much?? No one had to read it, y'all probably didn't haha :S Oh well this blog was more for me than for the world anyway! 1 More thing I realized: a pattern in my psychotic paranoia.. I think I should be analyzed really :/ Anyone agree? =O

No shocker it being 4AM on an apparent school night, I always used to stay up this late anyway.. 

Yours Trules,

Lilly xx

[p.s] sorry whoever read this, my heart goes out to you mate! lol =)

With Your Unrelenting Spark

Not much to update on, howeverrr I totally got my nose pierced today!! (please note... intensely painful!) 

Feeling like the world and I are really far apart from eachother and all my connections with people are compeletely destroyed (please advise if possible, really not a good state!)

Hating being a singleton and wondering when it will change.. and why it never seems to follow through! :S

Like my hair now, finally, and fear losing the colour! *shock* Like the new piercing (apart from the soreness)... Not liking a section of my body at the moment.. fucking winter being so useless uwekk..

Realized that people don't generally remember me ever.. Not special enough apparently.

Hating this depressed mood. 

If something doesn't change soon I shal flip out..

Lilly xx

When I Was A Young Boy Girl...

Nothing really to say I just thought I should abandon blogger way less than I do.

So I might aswell start by saying that my hair is blue.. Not out of choice this time though, for once... I went for black initially.. But little did I think JETBLACK hair dye would have a midnight-blue effect on blonde lol :/

Erm, no real people of interest because well, they're not lacking but, people are just generally too difficult to decode.. and I wasn't really ever a fan of puzzles.. But yeah :/ This blog already feels useless.. Mmm more updates let's think..

School is becoming such a drag. Boring, empty, endless days..  No effort to bother with homework. Trying to study but not really managing. Beginning to skip school days for no reason lately - which is bad - but it's not like we DO anything useful so that's okay. Art teacher is a bitch, English teachers put me to sleep, Home Economics teachers are too matter-of-fact, Spanish teacher is a complete whiner.. I swear, I'm tempted to throw stuff at her! And French teacher makes us laugh every now and again. Which is good. Nothing really negative to say about her or the English teachers.. But that's only 2 out of 5 so erk :/

Feeling like I don't give a shit about anything anymore :/ Somethings happen and it just doesn't affect me in the least like.. Even if the seriousness is 11/10 - no care at all! People are very influential in the sense that whatever they do or say, even if unintentionally, causes me distress.. But that's just me being all sensitive because I have nothing better to do.. :S

Hoping this year isn't as empty as it feels... Maybe when I get to summer things will be okay.. I don't really know.. I'm fairly content-ish at present :/ But the grey skies don't help! 

Lilly xx

Is This Really Just Another Crush?

Hhhhhoooowdyyyy partner!

ZOMFG so many things have happened! First of all, Happy New Year! Ultimately I have decided that 'Happiness' is the theme for 2009 (Are we seriously turning 17? It hasn't even clicked that I've turned 16 let alone!! :S)... Simply because, I let wahayyy too many situations affect me and I'm extremely emotional and all that's gone flying out the window now hasn't it! :) Changes, changes, changes! We promise ourselves a new set of rules in the beginning of every 'new' year, but we never follow through.. We always just accidentally-on-purpose forget them after halfway through January. It's a bit sad isn't it?

I'm not gonna be really loserism and say that my cute little resolutions are all gonna happen by 2010.. But they should. I've kindof taken an 'easy' road in choosing resolutions which aren't really exactly CHANGING me at all.. But kind of telling me what to keep and what to lose about myself. (P.S. the constant hair-changing is totally one of the keepsies, before you ask. It is like UNBELIEVABLY soft and I only rebleached it about 4 days ago!! Really!)

So now unto the events of however long it's been since previous bloggage. Hmm. Well, I have no hint as to how far back that was, but I'm pretty convinced it wasn't anywhere close to Christmas break.. Let's work our way backwards... In point form! Yay! :)

GONKFUL THINGS I DID BEFORE THE NEW YEAR

• Fixed my Sony camera without taking it back to the shop (wow I'm good!)
• Matured a tad
• Stayed out till 5:30AM on New Year's Eve
• Pulled freaks I didn't like(never again uwekk)
• Stayed out till 5:30AM on Christmas Eve
• Pulled a non-freak I do like (WIN!)
• Started hanging out with new people
• Got over losers I liked who didn't seem to like me (woah that was some list I can tell ya)
• Dropped my 2-week-old Sony camera in the toilet. 
• Annoyed the hell out of people by exaggerating the number of acceptable-camera-flashes-per-minute
• (This backwards thing is confusing)
• Decided that home-made Christmas gifts are altogether better for everyone. Why didnt I realize however that I am not patient enough to finish them? Sweeet!)
• Became wild
• Decided I adore my family after all because they spoil me and I'm a stupid little brat who isn't grateful
• Was in awe that finally I bought something from Things and it still hasn't broken yet (jinx anyone?)
• Bought my uggs.. ABOUT TIME THEY'RE LIKE PRACTICALLY OUT OF FASHION LOL
• Slacked on homework and projects, but got good marks anyway
• Test week ended
• Test week began
• Met new people at school
  
• Had a stupid crush on a stupid loser who I'm now over because, HELLO, STUPID LOSER MUCH? 

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I think that was where it started lol. Can't be sure though, oh well.. Sorry it's backwards, but I didn't feel like flipping it round half way down! Anyway, I'm a really lucky bitch. I got way more presents than I deserved for Christmas, and I really don't appreciate my family enough for what they do for me. Jaq I hate me sometimes :/.

Changed my school plans.. Gonna leave sixth form after first year and then join ITS and continue my A Levels privately up until the next year, then i'll just remain in ITS :) Sounds good yes? :D Hope I make it mans!

Enough shit for now? :)

Lilly xx 

YOU SHOULD ADMIT IT! I THINK!

ALLOOOOOOOO! I'M LINDZI LOHANNNNNNNN!

naattt....

I'm cooler than that! oh baby!! viva punctuation!! haha i couldn't care less taf! so uwiiiiwa.

omg can i just first say that i should prolly stop forgetting to blog!

second - (that wasn't what my first announcement was! :S oops) il madonna x'long term memory a?! aaaaaaaa yes! 3 A LEVELS IS SO NOT A GENIUS IDEA LOL

And i have so much to say but i dont know who is reading this and might discover things about me they never knew/SLASH/i never wanted them to know! oh well. it's the truth, and i ain't too good at lying xD so here goes!

Back to the A level story.. omg stressful. home economics is like nothing to do with like, cooking. how annoying! i have to stay learning about stupid consumers and their stupidity. like okay i get it, we're all tricking eachother into buying shit and it's a huge vicious circle. but okay, How does that help my life at all?! 

-notices she has been listening to a song for 4 mins and it didn't click until now-

-wow this song's good!-

-thanks bruv!-

Wow distraction level 10 on 10!! OMG REMEMBERING THE GUY I LABELLED 10/10 because of his sexismu body!! lol uwajma!!

Aha back to art.. lool.. art's cool. my favourite A level so far!! not the history part imma. just the painting. its fun XD and lessons are quite entertaining!

English is just a lesson to sleep in, because, omg, boring! funny how i hate literature yet i chose it practically for a level! what a GONK!! haha uwiwa its not difficult shit, ill get thru it, imma hekk it's so useless and unrelative lol :S

-replays song-

Aw man.. almadoff i just got another thought and it passed by

today i said my dog is 2D like dory the fish of nemo coz hekk he looks wide but hes really narrow-boddied haha :S and anyway the point of this story is that i think I am dory coz i have the memory of a fish man! 3 seconds and it's gone! (i wish anzi haha)

It's more.. 2 months and it's gone. which is quite helpful, because i always end up having loads of shit i want to forget lol

remember Hotstuff? (so much for forgetting him!) lol. he WASN'T the hottest person alive after all! ajjma what a life based on rating everyone! oh well :S

Today i realized how my other bruv (who it turns out reads my blogs, or not, i didn't really get that) haqq i forgot again madonna xi breakdown!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ah yes! my other bruv (this spellcheck is so annoying i didn't misspell 'brother' by mistake BRUVVVVV!) hahahahahahhaha omg

Anyway he spent all day saying 'what's the point' and 'MARKETING MARKETING MARKETING' and i wanted to die laughing!!!!!!!! he was the one who insisted on saving the environment and staying away from cancerous products etc etc bla bla yada yada and me saying life is a joke made him realize it is and OOPS I TURNED SOMEONE ELSE INTO DESTROYING THE WORLD lool because (rant much?) it was IIIIIII who spent all year saying "we're all gonna die"!! and we are. today i realized life is so much better when you don't take it that seriously ta. not to say tipo "GO RUIN YOUR LIFE" but hekk, WHAT'S THE POINT? lool oh madonna xi bdejt!?

Ilallu hadn't had an amazing night out in yonks! but yesterday we had Armin Van Buuren (omg xbuzz! lol) and i went with Carolineeee who like me has a hamallata streak in her, plus she is like the funnest person alive to go clubbing with hahahaha ilalla kem oxejt! JIEN ABLO! ABLO!!! lool ajma we got a bit happy... taf kif.. imma like it was really worth it man ax best night ever. plus how we met ceca and made me laugh too hard to breathe ahhaha!! aw Vuuren is the best ah? replay anzi! best night ever. want it again. and i didn't even pull rofl! that's how cool i am!! :)

Actually well this is me being all 'off guys' for a while, but i can't, coz they're a bit too hot.. aw i have an addiction ah? hazin hafna.. lol how funny the other day heriiicccc (who might read this HIIII ERIICC) told me... tell your cool friends hi! and i'm like... what friends?? HAHAHAHA good times good stuff. it's true imma.. totally kind of lost 85% of summer group ta. it's sad. but oh well :S life goes on. but still.. WHAT'S THE POINT?

Aw bruv, waqqajtek f'depression iiii thinnnk.. sorry ruhi qalbi baby!

Aw 2AM is so a bad time to leave a party annnaaaa =(

AW GUYS SUCK BUT TA TIGIX TGHIDLI LOL

I have to stop saying AW. AW BUT YESTERDAY KEROLAJN DIDN'T STOP SAYING "LOL" AND IT WAS SO FUNNY HAHAHA ajma ahh i want it back last night maa it was so tal-alla!

Illajks i can't hear the song DANGEROUS - AKON without erupting (eeee x'vocab!) into laughter coz i mean, ahahahah memories! ABLO!!!!!!!!! lol

Aw guys HIERGINNNN NEXT SAT!? xkont se najd.. ahhh i cut out the material for my customized new year's eve dress!! LEOPARRDD wooo hamallagni (Y)

Omg hajja is mad.. ILL IF I SAY 'AW' AGAIN AH?? GRR! (i was about to) i have to fix my memory ah? it's really getting on my nerves! christa i still don't know what i was gonna tell you before i got preoccupied by the vicks inhaler!! UFF!! oh baby getting high on vicks nibqghu sejrin hekk!! wtf is this blog post ajt lool stupid stupid stupid boys!! jaq i don't like how i'm expressing shit in public and anyone is free to read this ta.. how did i used to blog all the time?? :S

I want a UV tattoo (and a new piercing - any ideas?) haha how cool madoff. UV is my favourite thing ever ta. i'm addicted.

OMG I JUST REALIZED WHAT SONG WE WERE JUMPING TO LAST NIGHT haha coz the whole arena was going mad and singing this song of Buuren (aka Vuuren) and i was like wtf i don't know this song *sings anyway* and now i just realized i have it and i do know it maaa bimbo much? it's called Zicalo. some good shit, check it out yes! I must say though Fine Without You is rather grandesque!

Who else thinks December is the coolest month ever?!?!? Wow even! So many parties/events lined up kids, so little stipend! lol.. The hell am i supposed to do with 80 euro!?

Enough rant shit for one blog.. this is useless updating. Good day/night!

Lillyxx

Vamossssss

Well 'Life's Good' really fits as a brand that i could fill up my house with right now =)
Generally things are pretty satisfying! But I'm sill sad that I hardly see anyone anymore, and that my ex schoolfriends really are ex schoolfriends because well it seems i'll never see a good bunch of them again :/ Erk!! :O

Longing for a night out where I can really say I went mad and nothing went wrong.. Technically, erm, haven't had one of those in quite some time. But at least yesterday was rather good so can't complain THAT much! Anyway. School's going smoothly.. applied for my two O'levels on friday! Totally gonna be bombarded with free lessons once those are out of the way!! Hehe XD Good stuff, good stuff.

New persons on the agenda.. As per usual. T'has increased to about two or three currently.. But, one is impossible, the other is just a flirt, and I'm hoping person behind door number 3 is as amazing as they seem! =)

XOKKANTIIII haha ajma how entertainingful :').
Bazikament... What else is new.. Hrmmmmms... *wrecks brains* Absa-freakin'-lutely nothin' haha!! What a sad, sad piece of information!

Ahhh well! Seeing as I seem to have lost my touch of writing tons at a time... Toodles Poodles!! :) SOOOOO don't feel like school tomorrow erk! Want to sleep forever and ever amen!

Lilly xx

Ever So Lavish

I can not even put into WORDS the frustration of it all.
I blame myself really. I'm not even gonna bother trying to scatter the fault onto everyone... Because I mean, I just keep making problems for myself! I admit! Maybe I just NEEEED to have something to deal with at every moment, I don't really know, but still. Me, me, me!

Firstly, I let too much get on my nerves. People, sickness, school, etc. I don't know how to just shrug it off - perhaps because it's not in my nature. These are my stupid petty issues of the day/week/month, and why they are issues:

• I'm sick. Yep, barking like a dog. Hurts too, gotta tell you! Even skipped school yesterday due to it! But would you believe it? I actually went out at night. What the hell is my problem? I was so not going out because I wasn't up to it, and I knew for a fact the night was gonna be pants. And hey, what do you know? What a WASTE of an evening out! Should have well stayed inside for that one, so yeah. My fault.
• I keep forgetting what school work I have to hand in. Irrelevant that I write it down in my diary, because I mean, I don't even open my diary or anything when I get home. Just seem to like wrecking my brains about what I have to do and by when. Maa I'm so lazy. My fault also.
• My room is a total dump. I have the energy to tidy it up, but look at me now. I'm blogging about how it bugs me but I'm sitting here staring at it and putting it off! MUST DO IT! NOW! (soon as I finish the blog...) <-- did it again! *slaps head*. Again, my fault.
• Keep liking the wrong guys. Always. I think I'll give up pretty soon, and become a bitch like the girl in '10 Things I Hate About You'. That seemed to work rather smoothly. But it's tadly impossible to handle. (Omg suddenly very in the mood for a hotel breakfast buffet thing =O) Anyway, about the guy thing, I'm just gonna stop being so fussy and leave everyone alone. Because when I think about it, I still hate the whole world, regardless of how many hot people get to me. Shockingly, this too, is a fault of mine.

Hmm. There's lots more I rant to myself about, but frankly, it's starting to become so routine that it seems very useless to say.

Tata
Lillyxx

Counting Down The Days

To.. what? Well, as we know, I'm ALWAYS looking at something new as soon as one thing is fading out of my system. It was totally my birthday on the 24th October! What a sweet 16 it was! Woke up sick birthday morning, went to school, had people come visit me after it finished, ran off to the capital, popped by my nan's, eventually went to my sister's to get ready pour celebrations in Paceville.. Had to run half way across Ta` Xbiex in heels - one sans sopra tacca - to grab a lift to get to the venue.. Where I made a hugeass entrance due to extreme lateness (oops), had a shittyish night, met better people, had an AMAZING time, got home at like 3AM, woke up even sicker than previously, spent the day doing fuck all, went out a SECOND time that night, had the BEST night ever (okay almost haha), got home at 4AM, woke up voiceless, and then spent a day in recovery, but am still kind of voiceless hehe!! Coughing fit thirty times today - the most hilarious day of the week as of yet. (And it's only day one of five!)

SUCCESSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Basically having a stunning life, can't really fill you in on everything that's happened because, well, it's insanely long of a story and I don't know who reads this blog so OUCH if the wrong info gets out (haha).

All I can say is:

• Am over Hotstuff (about bloody time too)
• Was kindof over Peppu but now still find him damn beautiful
• Bit of scholastic drama
• New crushes!!
• Hair was half-bleached (by moi) back to blonde (Salmon wasn't flattering enough) and the un-bleached bits were dyed permanent red (that's gonna be a bitch to remove hahaha) and tomorrow am finally cutting it!!!!!! After months of whinage!! :)

OMG did I never say how starting school was like the most hilarious thing that ever happened to me? It's soooooo too late to start yapping now. 3rd week into school! Gonna have to suffer I guess, lol, sorry. Although a good bunch of you know the details anyway. I totally ditched blogger guys! This is a revolution! Who needs blogger with a life like mine?? Haha.. I was never the 'journal' type girl anyway.. But I might get back ino blogmode. When I'm round 40 and having a crisis or some shit. And by which time I will still not want to spent all week posting 24 years of my life on a webpage.. lol.

HAHAH I AM SO FINALLY 16 HOW UTTERLY GRANDECENTRALLLLLL WOOOOOOO!

Lillyxx

That Was Just A Lie! Just A Lie!

Raise your hands whoever forgot about our total Moonlight addiction of early this year.

(I sure as hell did mann!)
Tell you why... The last I rememeber, they were going to continue posting episodes often, and... They kind of stopped after Episode 16.. And then we all had a freak fest because, well, that show was bloody addictive. And hey, the vampire was Australian. And sexy. And a vampire. (WIN WIN WIN!) Butttt keep your pants on....... We soon learned that OMG HOORAY!! SEASON 2 IS IN THE MAKING!!

And now, how many months later? 6?

Where is Season 2? I don't see youuu!
Je suis, currently reading the 3rd book from the Meg Cabot "Heather Wells" series thingamajig, at 11:30pm - because HELLO everyone is at a live-in or out or (yeah... no, they're not asleep)... so I have nothing better to do (because I am not out due to sickness) and not at a live-in (because I mean, look at me!) - get the sudden - if not remarkably random!! I mean?!?! -realization upon the reach of page 8, that, OMG let's check for Moonlight episode updates!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And excitedly rush through Surf The Channel only to find no new episodes, and then google "moonlight season 2", because, well, a girl's gotta know mann.

GUESS WHAT ALARMING NEWS I FOUND OUT??????????????????

*drum roll please... on an iPhone drum pad game... which I no longer have but still... let's just pretend here, because I ain't seeing no drum kit either!*

Moonlight: CBS Cancels Vampire Drama, No Season Two

Though things were looking good for a second season of CBS’ vampire show, Moonlight has been cancelled. The show has loyal followers, the ratings were decent, and the series often won its timeslot. What happened?
Essentially Moonlight has been cut for a number of reasons. The rest of the network’s schedule is quite strong in the ratings and it certainly makes no sense to cancel one of the stronger series. If Moonlight were on the ratings-challenged CW, it certainly would have been renewed.

Like, sweet potato PIE, mannn! What the hell was THAT about mm? I'm terribly crushedski. They were TOTALLY gonna stun everyone with the new shit on the show... And now we'll obviously never get to know what happens to Mick and Beth (macbeth ROFL.. ohhh ze good ol' dayz oui?), and who will entertain me with utter witty remarks if not Josssef? *cries a river*

CRY ME A RIVVERRRR.... CRY ME A RIIVVER!

Lolling at Justin "Sexified" Timberlake. Anyway. Back to my life. They broke our road. We have no road. And today I was thinking about:

1. Ms. Chetcuti talking about sedimentary layers in the sea during a Science lesson in form 1 or 2. That thingy subject about the volcano drawing? That one.
2. The Social Studies BORING-ASS student teacher in form 3 (no it couldn't have been form 3 because we had Ignas the pimp and the hoes! LOL *dies at memory of us all trying to look really intelligent and cool because we were being filmed* [creepy, I know, hence why we called them Ignas the pimp and the hoes. Coz REALLY.]) or 4 (that musta been it.. don't remember it being form 5!), when she was talking about the Strata of the social ladder or some shit like that, I mean, it was social studies, like I would really pay attention or anything!

Yeah, that's probably basically it, lol. Reason being because I looked at the perfectly cut out rectangle which extends all the way from one end of the road, all down it's length to the other side, and could see the layers of different material shit. Like stone and clay and tarmac and all that jazz.

And since we have no road, we have to walk from the adjacent road. To go home. So that's a bummer. I'm sure it's gonna suck loads for them when it rains and therefore fills their perfect little rectangle of non-road. BUT YAY THEY'RE GIVING US A BRAND NEW ROAD XD. And, new pipes = better water! WOOOOOOOOOOO party over herreee! Except, not. Had you going there didn't I!

So yeah I am reading Meg Cabot's latest series-book thing, Big Boned... Because yesterday I finished Size 14 Is Not Fat Either (fucking lolarious but scary, man, I gotta tell you!) and she inspired me to want to write a Very Thrilling Novel (stole that from BIG WOO!) Lol.. Had to though, pure grandosity.

MUST BUY NEW LOUISE RENNISON BOOKS!!!
Hey guys how do you like my new blog layout?? :D

And OMG, speaking of guys! I forgot to mention, the other day, on the bus from, like, some tangent of Birkirkara, I discovered that there's a really hot 19/20-year-old-looking (I'm not sure, obviously) guy with blonde hair and wowful blue eyes and I mean, spice and all that, who works for the ADT thing. Of the buses. Probably hamalluey.. But, who cares? Fricking gorgeous mann.

OMG yet again, because, is anyone else noticing how I always mention a hottie?? Maa they're just all over the place. The book I finished reading last night totally inspired me to do this new activity thingy at school which'll probably a) make me look desperate, b) get me into trouble for it's lack of etiquette, and c) pull me a few!! :) Not like that was even the issue, but BONUS! Haha.

Anyway the scope is that I have like big huge judge-number-cards and write the numbers from 1 till 10 on them, and then rate the guys who pass by. I know it sounds really cheap and loserific, but it's totally just for a laugh haha, because it's hilarious. And no it's not MEAN! It's just a joke anyway you know. Before you go thinking I'm really low! Lol. Well hey, even if I am, that'd make me a great limbo player! Hahaha!

See youuu in a fewww. (Weeks, or years, or something.)
Lilly xx

Mood Rings, Oh Mood Rings!

I don't really have much to blog about ta`. I just felt like. Well I had a blog-rush this morning (okay, so it was noonish, but HUSH PUPPY!) because of the weather being all grey and rainy and pooey and so I was like REALLY WANNA BLOG!

But by the time I sat at the computer and was about to open Blogger, the.. sky kind of cleared up and it stopped raining buckets, and my blogger-mood kind of drained away with it. :/

So like I said, about the psychological crap yesterday, I have now confirmed that weather really affects mood. And who would have known there was such a mood for blogging? I don't feel like the sun shining today. Really. It's not that I'm sad like that loserific smiley *pokes screen*, coz I'm not really sad at all, but hekk since Summer has died a death, the sun really needs to go away and only appear on Sundays and Saturdays when it's a nice blue sky kind of day with an icy breeze and clear air.. That's just beautiful. Total relaxation with Radox going on there!

Omg how ravishing!! I created this new recipe today. Chicken pulpetti sauce! Mm it's yummy :)

Now I will finally post those surveys I talked about putting on here, a few tens of blogs ago!

Personal Survey

Name: Elizabeth Pace
Birthday: 24th October
Birthplace: Pieta`
Zodiac sign: Scorpio
Shoe size: 40/41 European...
Skinny/Average/Pleasantly plump/FAT: Average I would say!
Righty/Lefty: Righty
Can you afford to lose weight: I don't want to be skinny, so no.
Fave part of your body: Legs I suppose
Least fave part of your body: Ankles
Fave part on the opposite sex: Upper body/back
Biggest Turn-On: Body
Biggest Turn-Off: Short/ugly
Describe the perfect date: Spontaneous. Planned dates are boring.
Top 4 qualities you look for in the opposite sex: Attractive, Entertaining, Gentleman kinda attitude, Confident
Are you dating anyone: No
If not, do you wish you were: Um, yeah okay.
Who: Pinchy, Stalkerboy, Hotstuff..
Current Crush: Pinchy, Stalkerboy
If someone really liked you, would you want them to tell you: Not verbally.
Long distance relationship or no relationship: No relationship.
Coke or Pepsi: Coke
Cars or Trucks: Cars
Cats or Dogs: Dogs
Hot or Cold: Hot
Pants or shorts: Shorts

Long sleeves or short sleeves: Long sleeves
What are you wearing right now: Underwear, trousers, top
What are you listening to: Relient K
If you could have one wish, what would it be: To see Hotstuff again!
What is your favorite season: Spring/Summer
What is your favorite type of music: House
Do you have a website: http://www.lillayyy.blogspot.com/ (in other words, this one)
Have you ever been in love: No ta`.
Do you like camping: No
Do you like theme parks: Yes
Indoors or Outdoors: Indoors
Favorite type of movie: Comedy
3 names you might name your son: Harry, Charles, Richard
3 names you might name your daughter: Lilly, Georgina, Brittany
How many kids do you want: 4
What age do you want to get married: Uwajma you can't plan that.
What age do you want to have your first kid: 20s...
Do you have any siblings: Yes
How many: 4
What pets do you have (if any): 2 dogs, 5 cats :/
T.V. or Computer: Computer
Do you play an instrument: Kind of
Do you speak more than one language: Yes
What are your 3 favorite sports: Football, swimming, hockey
How many posters are on your wall: 1
Hardwood floor or carpet in your bedroom: Hardwood
Is your room messy or tidy: Messy
Would you let your crush or b/f in your room: Um, I guess so :/
Do you like to burp: No
Top 5 favorite foods: Steak, Bovril, Chicken, Chocolate, Banana
Have you been on stage in the last month: I don't think so.
How many best friends do you have: Hard to say
Would you rather go to the movies or rent a movie: Go to the movies
When was your last date: I wouldn't call it a date exactly
3 Favorite things to do at home: Sleep, Cook, Shower
Swimming in the ocean or a pool: Pool!
Are you confident: Yeah
Do you like to take risks: Yeah!
Favorite subject in high school: Home Economics, English
Least favorite subject in high school: Maths :/
Are you in high school: No
Clothes shopping or grocery shopping: Both :)
Do you have a job: No
Do you drive: No
Say one extra thing about yourself: GO YANKEESSS!

And obviously I felt like doing another survey (these things are really addictive okay?)

75 Questions You've Probably Never Been Asked

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
Stomach

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Blue

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Omg no!

4.Do you plan outfits?
Most of the time yeah

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Sick

6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red?
My nails?

7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?
'aim'

8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
It was really unreal. Loads of people I know, odd dream - very random.

9. Did you meet anybody new today?
Yes!

10. What are you craving right now?
Mm.. peanuts?

11. Do you floss?
Not unless I have shit in between my teeth

12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Fields.. lol

13. When was the last time you talked on aim?
I don't have aim!

14. Are you emotional?
Somewhat

15. Would you dance to the taco song?
Yeah man!

16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
Probably hehe

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Lick! My teeth are sensitive.

18. Do you like your hair?
Not today

19. Do you like yourself?
Yeah sure

20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Yes :)

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
Yep

22. What are you listening to right now?
Basshunter

23. How many countries have you visited?
8 that I remember

24. Are your parents strict?
Not really

25. Would you go sky diving?
Maa how scary maybe!!

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
As if, that assface. I'd lose my appetite!

27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
Why would I waste potatoes like that?

28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?
Hehe yeah.. my jewellery :)

29. Have you ever been in a castle?
I honestly don't remember, so probably not.

30. Do you rent movies often?
No

31. Who sits in behind you in your math class?
I don't have math class anymore!! *emits happiness*

32. Have you made a prank phone call?
Who hasn't?

33. Do you own a gun?
No

34. Can you count backwards from 74?
Yes :/

35. Who are you going to be with tonight?
No one yayyyyyyyy :)

36. Brown or white eggs?
Both, I ain't racist mann.

37. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
Maybe

38. Ever been on a train?
YES :D

39. Ever been in love?
No (stop asking?)

40. Do you have a cell-phone?
Yes

41. Are you too forgiving?
More like the opposite!

42. Do you use chap stick?
I prefer lip balm.

43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
Probably school

44. Can you use chop sticks?
Yeah!

45. Ever have cream puffs?
Don't remember

46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Yes and man, it was really confusing. I didn't like it.

47. What was the last question you asked?
Refer to question 39.

48. What was the last CD you bought?
Don't really buy CDs

49. Boys or girls?
Boys

50. What is your bus number for school?
45

51. Is your hair curly?
No

52. Last time you cried?
Last night. That movie was totally sad.

53. Ever walked into a wall?
Plenty of times.

54. Do looks matter?
Of course they do!

55. Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun?
What the hell is that!? lol

56. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yeah

57. Favorite time of the year?
Christmas

58. Favorite color?
Blue!

59. Are you sarcastic?
Some days hehe

60. Do you have any tattoos?
No!

61. The last person you held hands with?
Let me just check my diary..... not.

62. Do you sleep with the TV on?
Yes

63. Where was your default picture taken at?
The blogger one - on a bus from Naxxar

64. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
Yes

65. Do you like your life right now?
I guess so

66. How often do you talk on the phone?
Whenever people phone me.

67. What is your favorite animal?
Dog, panda

68. What was the most recent thing you bought?
Refreshments

69. Do you have good vision?
Yes

70. Can you hula hoop?
Yes

71. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
No

72. Do you have a job?
No

73. Can you handle the truth?
Yes

74. What are you wearing?
Home clothes

75. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yes

What better way to get to know someone than to ask them questions? :) Well okay, maybe you didn't want to know me, but then why would you be reading my blog? Lol. Go home!!

Also, it has come to my attention, once again, that summer friendships are somewhat ended (don't freak out) due to scholastic programs, and therefore nous allons faire les nouveau amis a l'ecole! Woohoooo! That shouldn't be a problem.

Is it just me or does everyone notice how every year close friends kind of change? Like, you're best friends with someone one year, and then you drift, and then the next year you have a new pal, and then you have a new group, and then that kindof fades and you meet new people, etc. It's a bit of a cycle if I must say so myself.

And then when you meet the new people and start hanging out with them and having loads of fun, you're wondering: "What the hell was I doing before I met these people? Oh well!"

That could well be why my memory has started to fuck up, coz I just keep blocking out certain things.. It's a bit sad really, but I am one who likes change, and so, this is good. And, it was bound to happen. We've all kind of split up again, and formed new groups. Anyways, it's a bit impossible to forget stuff now that I've blogged about it! :) So YAYYYYY KUDOS TO BLOGGER FOR EXISTING :D

I'm sure the new group is gonna be fan fookin' tastic :) Also, having loads of hot potentials at school means I always have to look decently good. Better stock up on make-up!! :) (Total awesome shopping day this will be!!)

By the way, wasn't the Taco Song just ludacrously catchy?? :)
Lilly xx